stunned as your lungs protrude, i shouldnt watch you
but i do.
greasy hands crease the dust jacket, smear the windshield
as we fly by traffic
and i am catching you in the act of lying
you should be better at it now with all this time to think it out.
coughing, a flicker of thought, a flicker of light
as you inhale,
i shouldnt care about you but i do.
let the kids in the breakdown lane stand there amazed,
we will not slow for them, we will not blink as we run over them,
i will watch you, i will reach and touch sweaty skin
and stay sick,
stunned as the glass explodes, afraid that my last thoughts
have been wasted.